I will remember...

I will remember last night...

You had the opportunity to make it all right, but u didn't. I gave you a chance to tell me you loved me and wanted to start all over and work things out... but you didn't say it. Was everything u said three mths ago a lie? I will remember, how you let me down last night.

I will also remember my bestie and all the things he said. He will always be there for me, and no matter how many people leaves me, he will not. He loves me unconditionally. Bill called me when he was there, he stepped out of the car to gimme some privacy and waited for me outside. Now that's a friend.

I still can't get over it... you gave up. Really have nth to say to me?

Rabbits & Dinosaurs

So he breaks up with his girlfriend. What now? I know he's not my type. He picks up girls here, there and everywhere, cares about money more than nething else... why should I care? Why do I care that you're having a shit time at work? Why do I care that you want to drink urself unconscious and rather be dead? Why do i even mind when you are promoting the friggin dinosaur?! You know I am not interested. Kill me now. ARGH!

Instead of stressing what flowers to have, what dress to wear... here I am wondering whether you will get off ur ass and do sth with ur life and be proactive for once. You say you're disappointed, so? what now? You have not done anything about our relationship in the past 3mths. Isn't enough enough?

Sent you an sms... no reply. You can go fuck yourself. Sif I care.

ARGH! The world is such a cruel place... everything's against me!

...a clean start...

I have been blogging for many years. I have decided that I need a fresh start. A blog that no one knows about is exciting. I can write whatever I desire. No restrictions.

I need a clean start.... I cannot bare to look back at all my old posts. I guess that's what makes me who I am today. There were so many ups, but also a good proportion of downs. Anything I look bk on are just that, memories.

I cannot believe how much time I invested on sth that in the end was not meant to be. I wanted it all to work. But it didn't. I don't understand how someone can be so passive. Do you have no thoughts, feelings or desires? Your passiveness kills me. It really does. I dunno how we manage to disagree and disappoint each other even when we're not together.

Aim for the moon and even if you fall, you will fall among the stars.

Playdough... moulding it and manipulating it any way a child wants.

Enough is enough.... I surrender... I give up...

The princess will continue to wait for her prince to come whisk her away.